So, okay. Here I am, imagining what I would like to look like at the end of 2010, if I have done everything perfectly. I have a picture in my mind, and immediately there is a problem, because it is a picture of Parker Posey in You've Got Mail. In other words, I have (magically) become a successful and ruthless editrix with a palatial apartment and a large dog that my sweet, funny, bookstore-owning boyfriend (played by Tom Hanks, until he leaves me for an inconsequential blonde; perhaps thereafter played by Patrick Dempsey) walks and cleans up after. So apparently my resolution is to enter the la-la land of big budget chick flicks.
Except not. So what can I learn from this exercise? Well, I think it is encouraging that I am visualizing the Parker Posey character rather than the Meg Ryan character, inasmuch as I am a lot more like the former, and I wouldn't really like to be a dreamy shift-wearing NPR-quoting kindergarten-teacher type. I do think I would like to have a dog, although not in the immediate future since I would first need to move to a new apartment (also, I was cheating - the dog belongs to Tom Hanks). I would also like to be an editor, of course, but that's probably not in the cards. The real point is the professional success of the character, and also her ruthlessness. Perhaps my resolution for 2010 should be ruthlessness.